Learning Patience
Unfortunately not one of my better traits, patience. Having said that I have patience for others but not particularly for myself and the creation of my dreams. I have so many ideas crammed into my head at the moment about what I want to do when I move and how I can make them happen. So I feel more than a little frustrated and very impatient about it all. However, obviously, I have to have all my ducks in a row for me to move forward and it looks like they are not quite there. Why and what is not in line at the moment is beyond me but in this respect it is where I need my patience. I know it will happen I am just waiting for the starting pistol to fire. Sound crazy? Mmm I do sometimes think I am.
In the meantime, in an attempt to stop the frustration and impatience I am taking care of my little girl Bella, although at times she too drives me to distraction. Bless her heart, even though she no longer sees well, or hears well, and her back legs do not always do what the rest of her body wants she will stand and stare at me if she feels it is time for her food, or she wants me to go to bed because she is ready, until I respond. What would you do with her? Of course I give in with the going to bed if it is not too early but I do make her hold out with the food otherwise feeding times would come closer and closer together if she had her way. If I tell her loudly enough and I do not make a move she usually goes and lays down again until it really is time for her food.
My gorgeous girl Bella as she was in her younger years. Such a sweetheart, then and now.
My beautiful little old girl Bella, now in her seventeenth year. Love her white face. This is her fourteenth year with me.
As I write this we are having the most incredible storm with a lot of thunder and lightning, so much rain I cannot even see the forest across the fields and only a few meters of the fields closest to me. Wow! a huge crack of thunder overhead, so loud Bella heard it - I had hoped that, as her hearing is not so good and because it is daytime she cannot see the lightning, it would all pass by without her being frightened but that really was loud. My poor Bella is not happy, she hates storms and gets very frightened. Got her settled on the sofa at last and the storm seems to be leaving us now so she is much calmer.
The poor bull in the field across from me was out in all of it, luckily there are some dense bushes close to the wall of the field where he was trying to get some protection. He is now happily looking for food and moving about the field with his bell ringing. He is a lovely black bull who years ago used to come to the field with some horses but neither he nor the horses have been there for at least five years. Suddenly, this year, at the beginning of the summer he was here again with his bell and I think he must have a new owner as a gentleman comes at least once a day, if not more, with treats for him and to brush him down. Lots of people stop to try and stroke him when he is near the wall of the field. He seems very gentle and friendly.
As well as taking care of Bella, observing the black bull and watching the birds coming onto my terrace to use the bird baths I have, I am also growing both vegetables and flowers. I have beetroots, peanuts and sweet potatoes on the go at the moment along with some lovely herbs, peppermint, chocolate mint, sage, oregano, parsley, chamomile, lavender and thyme, oh and also aloe vera. Great flowers in my window boxes, unfortunately some I don’t know the name of but I do know coleus, tagetas and the rest are a variety of different daisy type flowers of purple and orange, really must look up what they are, along with the lavender and oregano mixed in. I also have an amazing succulent type flower that produces flowers of several different colours from the same plant.
I have been saving seeds from most of them where possible ready for my garden in Galicia.
Of course I am also working on this website and blog - still lots to add. I have to admit I published it with trepidation and anxiety. It is very hard to reveal so many parts of yourself and particularly for an Introvert. I am working on pages defining my progress through life from childhood to now but I have to say that my SDAM is causing quite a few difficulties for me. If you are not sure what that is take a look under ‘About’ where I have outlined more or less what it is. I have so many gaps in my memory and realise that many aspects of memory, particularly the order of things, tend to hang on having reference points, which are usually images in your head or photos. I am having trouble putting the memories I do have in the correct timeline order. This is delaying my progress with the pages a little to say the least! However perseverance I am good at so am looking forward with a little trepidation to putting it up once finished.
